After taking some time yesterday to review my 2019 goals, it’s officially time to shift gears and look forward to 2020! Tomorrow I’ll be giving you a peek into what I’ll be focusing on in the coming year by sharing what goals I have set. But first, I’m excited to chat with you today about my word of the year.
Have you ever chosen a word of the year? I used to feel pretty overwhelmed at the thought of choosing one – probably because I was afraid of choosing the “wrong” one. But as a part of the PowerSheets prep work, I’ve found a helpful process to narrow down what word(s) might be a good fit for my year by noticing the threads of what is on my mind and heart. This is my third year choosing a word and with each passing year I feel a bit more comfortable with the concept. I don’t put too much weight on it, but it was really helpful last year to have a word in the back of my mind to hold me accountable to what I wanted to work towards throughout the year. I’m predicting that this year will be very similar.
This year’s word actually started showing up in my life the middle of last year. I couldn’t tell you exactly what initially sparked it, but the latter half of 2019 was filled with the build up of this word in my life. In hindsight, it not-so-coincidentally became a big theme in a few books I read, in a Bible study I was participating in, and on many Instagram posts I saw. It felt like a whisper in the back of my mind, growing louder, until it kind of hit me like a ton of bricks at the end of the year. I’ve mentioned this word and concept in many of my recent posts and in conjunction with the season I’m in, so it may or may not be a surprise to you that my word of the year is…
To be honest, in some ways this word scares me a little bit. Because for me, it means holding open hands for my life. It means this year I will be trying more than ever to follow God wherever He may be leading me, especially through this new season of unemployment. And while it’s scary because I don’t know where, how, or what that will be, and it requires me to release my total control, I fully believe and trust that God offers me life to the full, and the way to receive that life is to follow Him and obey Him (John 6:35, 40). I believe His ways are far higher and better than my ways (Isaiah 55:9). And I believe He is for me and wants good for me (Psalm 118:6) – He’s proven so time and again in my life – so by faith, I feel confident that I can trust and obey Him in what He calls me to.
In the process of confirming that this would be my word for 2020, it was solidified even further when I came across an article on Desiring God called The Nowness of Obedience. Through this article it struck a chord for me to recognize how easily I am tricked into thinking that my imaginary obedience, or even just my desire to be obedient, counts as actual obedience, when it reality it does not. This inspired me all the more to really start living in obedience NOW – not just thinking about doing so like I have been for a long time.
I also want to be careful with this word, though, because my natural inclination will be to want to obey perfectly. I want to do things right (if you’re an enneagram enthusiast, I’m a solid 1 if that helps explain anything). And
sometimes oftentimes, God calls us to be obedient to things we don’t fully understand, or He doesn’t fill us in on all the details right out the gate – just like when He called Abraham to leave his homeland and travel to the land of his inheritance without knowing exactly where it would be (Hebrews 11:8). It’s harder to expect perfection when you can’t foresee every step you are going to take. But the call is just to walk in obedience, not to figure out all the things. God even spoke to this as I was reading just this morning:
“The truth of our reality is that we’re held in God’s kingdom by grace – not by our flawless interpretation, perfect attendance, or impeccable obedience.”Jess Connolly, You Are The Girl For The Job
Ah, grace. That beautiful, wonderful gift of a concept that I need to be reminded of day in, and day out. It’s not about doing it perfectly. It’s about just being obedient with what I have. Sure, I’ll have missteps and lose course on occasion, but grace is there to catch me and always bring me back to the heart of God.
I have a feeling that the Lord is just getting started with me and this word. It’s still a little scary, but there is also no safer place for me to be than held by God. And I don’t want to miss out on the abundance He has for me on the other side.
So, that’s what I’ll be aiming for this year! Easy, peasy, right? 😉 I’d love for you to join me tomorrow when I will be sharing some more specific ways I am seeking to be obedient this year through my 2020 goals.
P.S. Alright, it’s your turn! Have you chosen a word for this year? If so, I’d love to hear about it in the comments!